What do I need right now? Probably nothing more than a few days off, which I plan to take the last week of the month. What don't I need? Self-judgment and self-imposed pressure to keep up.
Read MoreThis is a day of sorrow. And this is a day of giving thanks. I wonder as I type the words whether both can be true, and am not at all convinced that the answer is yes.
Read MoreWhat if you let go of the pressure to produce and focused more on what feels good?
Read MoreMy head is foggy, so I wonder why I sat down to write a blog post. But I think that may be the reason, actually. To sit and write even when I am not the least bit inspired feels worthwhile.
Read MoreInhale. Exhale. Thought thought thought thought thought. Leaves fluttering. Eyes heavy. Inhale. Exhale. Car warm. Drowsy. Thought thought thought thought. Inhale. Exhale. Temptation to check timer. Inhale. Exhale. And then, finally, the chime. Aaaaaaaah. I did it.
Read MoreMaybe I'm not so much like the chicken after all. But I do love the simplicity and whimsy of the picture, so perhaps that, at the end of the day, is why I like it and will keep it on the fridge.
Read MoreIt's the same mountain, you know. The one and very same mountain you've been scaling your whole life.
Read MoreLike glass, I feel very breakable and very strong these days, a strange, living contradiction, a container of Whitman-esque multitudes.
Read MoreIt's like the rabbi reminds the congregation at the start of the Torah service, every time there is a bar or bat mitzvah: We are not here as performer and audience, but as a community.
Read MoreWhat if playing with balance was the very thing that made me good at this thing?
Read MoreMagic needs freedom.
And true freedom requires beginning here, with this moment of quiet and stillness.
Read MoreHating on yourself is not cool. It doesn't exactly open the creative floodgates. And "being good to yourself" is neither as easy as it sounds or as shallow as it may seem. In fact, I'd argue that its depths are vast, and when you dive down, you'll find wreckage and treasure alike. And isn't that where the writing lives?
Read MoreWhat I have experienced is that by giving myself space to FEEL anger, to truly just feel it, the pressure to "make it something" is lessened and I do, in turn, feel more able to take action.
Read MoreWhat do I want to feed my imagination? Now that feels like a question worth spending time with.
Read MoreThen I stand in my driveway in the early morning, and the beauty of the flowering trees and bird songs makes me want to weep, for the gift of these and the stark, impossible disparities.
Read MoreYou can't keep up.
You stop trying to keep up.
You decide it's worth waiting for.
You decide to screw waiting.